I’ve just felt really compelled to write. Thank God I still have my Tumblr. Hah

I have such a great life. I mean it not in a boastful manner; but rather a humble one. I’ve gotten everything in my life handed to me on a silver platter. And honestly, it not fair. It’s not fair to anyone else who isnt as lucky as me. Its not fair to me, because for the longest time I’ve just been expecting things to be my way. I mean, I am on top of the world right now. I have the best family who loves me truly and unconditionally. I have loyal friends who I can always count on. Im in my dream school and in a place where New York is literally my playground. I have everything I could ever ask for (dream car, big house, and everything in between). Damn, I dont even know how I got into this position. How can I have everything, but not really want any of it?

Up to this point in my life, Ive just wanted to be happy and to live in the moment. I had a lot of trouble doing this growing up and everything seemed to just pass by so quickly.

I dont even know why Im writing about this. Or even why Im saying anything. The last thing I was doing was talking to my parents about Christmas and being home. Damn.

Excuse my stream of consciousness.